Knowledge is Power; so how do we unknow?

I've wondered for a while about knowledge. I as a scientist find great comfort in what we can call fact. Though sometimes we see things, hear things and eat things that we'd like to forget all together. A popular meme states: Cannot be unseen. So how do we forget things we want to forget and hold on to those memories fondest?

Telling people you love them for the first time can be wonderful. Though it being rejected not so much. So why do we cling to that harsh memory of the one that got away and forget the girlfriends past? And one thing: would you want to know who was fantasizing about you? Well, would you?

Marvin and the Guys

I finished The Restaurant at the End of th Universe and I am Number 4 this weekend. Good to read again! I've been buying books, just to have more books without actually reading any. So I still need to read several books. Also probably lost a book from my brother. He is moving now to his own place and there is a book missing that I was reading...2 years ago. So I'm gonna wait 'till he actually moves; maybe the book'll turn up; else: Ebay!

Now I'm searching for my watch's receipt; The stopwatch pointer is not stationary at 12, like usual, but at 11. No biggy; i can live with it but its just that it looks less fashionable. All this time I type now is time less in the shining sun here in this small country. Still; need to do stuff before I can leasure. Washing, cleaning room, dishes of meals past and then dinner, hop on the train, in the bus to the library where a friend of mine has an exposé. EXCITING!

Later maybe some pondering of the mechanics of life.

The first report

I finally decided to hold a blog. I don't know how many people I know will read it, I don't know how if I want them to. I just know this: I love words, I have an opinion, I have issues. So here goes.

I am alive. That I am willing to share. There will be personal items about me and my acquaintances, but I hope none of them mind or ever find out.

So I am a guy, living around somewhere on our globe. I am a lonely guy and have some needs which are not met. Sure I am doing good academically and in my life things come along fine.But still there are some things some people have and others that don't have it and envy them. So well that's what's bothering me and probably 46% of developed coutries' people. (There is always that 4% that doens't care.)

So what to do? Meet new people should be the answer. 'Cause I try and I try and I try; still can't get no satisfaction. So: What gives? Too picky? That is my most recent conclusion. Still. If 5 of my friends all get some. In some form of another, there must be some kind of ...

Any how. I taught myself to think of two good things I have every time I think of something I don't have. Which works in concept and sometimes does in actual life. Though the hole I have that I want to fill is not filled with words. Still it forces me to be happy. Can't force love right? Just wait until I am not looking for it and then i'll find it... or something like that.

Enough self pitty. Live life to the fullest. Momento Mori and Carpe Diem.